So I shall not. I'm feeling really down and meh, but I know plenty of people will b***h at me if I keep whining. They're just as hippocritical as themselves.
I have a good mind half the time to tell alot of people just to ******** off if they can't be bothered to like me for who I am, not when I'm in a 'good' mood.
But I won't, cos that just causes more bitching and the such.
Yeah, this week alot of people have bitched about me which yet again has led to a party being cancelled.
So to the ******** who screwed it up for Dee: Grow the hell up. If you don't like me then get over it! You think I want to spend time with you, no. But for friends I'll do anything. Unlike you.
Anyways, started Christmas shopping today. :]
I spent most my wages and was kinda upset about that as it means I may struggle with Ross and possibly Chris's presents but hopefully ema will pull me through. As the money I hopefully get around December 20th will be able to get Chris's present.
I really should have started saving earlier..
But yes I brought:
bra - for moi.
Black hold-ups - for moi.
Lilac slippers - Mom.
3xsocks - Mom.
Red and beige top - Katie.
2xsocks - Katie.
Superman slippers - Andrew.
3xsocks - Dad.
Weird African style mask - Phil&&Mary [Chris's Dad and Girlfriend]
"Spirited Away" dvd - Mrs G.
I still have £30 in the bank - and I want to get Chris's moms pressie asap as there's only on in the shop... but I also need to save for Alex and Ross. :/
I'm pretty sure I can do it, I'm worried about when my wages go through though. xD
I just realised as well.. I need to book Lauren's and my tickets to see The Blood Brothers. Ugh, this is too much. I really should have started this instead of wasting my money early on. u_u
I feel really lonely tonight. I want to go out somewhere but I've got no-where to go. Everyone will be busy or will live too far away. I feel terribly lonely at the moment. I have nothing to do but clean, cook and do my homework BUT I don't want to do any of those. I don't see the point anymore, I want to be lazy. >.<
Tomorrow I have my doctors appointment with mental health. That's gonna be bloody fun, I'm really dreading it to be honest, I haven't been in an open mood really and I know it's going to be hard after being out of conuncilling for a few months. But I must do it for the sake of so many people besides me self so I will. And I shall get better cos I'm great like that. :]
Nick's begun his sketch show and it's funneh - with aid of my random ideas now and then - Jaws theme! XD
It's gonna be great but no-one free on the days we have the drama studio booked which is balls. I mean I can do Monday's afterschool but not Fridays. So yeah, who knows whats gonna happen. o_o
Some people are giving me the impression they don't want to be around me or keep snapping at me for no reason. Alex keeps giving me snide-ish comments and I don't know whether its me being paranoid or her intentially. I guess time will have to tell. *shrugs*
Also, I have a picture for all of those who are dying for a relationship:
Or think they'll never be happy cos they don't have one.
Love isn't the key to happiness.
 HoverCrab · Tue Nov 21, 2006 @ 05:06pm · 0 Comments |
