Edit: Due to me messin' up and eatin' 3 chocolate chip cookies on December 22nd, I've decided to quit for the New Years!
Now I am off all caffienes, sodas and chocolates, WOO!
Also, yesterday I had hit rock bottom, thinking there was no point in trying anymore and all that drama teenagers face. I just broke down into tears and thought I'd never succeed, I get like that during the school year sometimes when work starts piling up and my mom starts bugging me about college applications and all that other stuff. BUT, this morning I got my SAT scores and it was 200 points better then before, and it gave me hope again. I also got caught up in my work, so I'm happy as a clam! Life is back to rainbows and non cancer forming sunshine!
And just so I can get this off my chest, as well as explain why I was in a bad frame of mind recently, I discovered at my Thanksgiving that my Grandma has labelled me as the bad kid that will ruin Thanksgiving just because my Mom told her that I was gay. For one, I'm not gay, and secondly, what does being gay have to do with being bad? I've discovered that my entire family hates eachother, and just pretends to like one another, which I now have to do because my Grandma is paying for my college. Oh well, I get to change my name soon, go to college, and never see them again, so Woo!
Also, I have a feeling my Mom has been saying a lot more about me to my Grandma, so I can't blame my Grandma for feeling that way about me, though I wish she'd listen to both sides first. Also, I can't blame my Mom because from how I act it's no suprise why she thinks about me the way she does, but I'd rather her not assume so much, because she's always wrong. So yeah, I just have to remember that no one is at fault and it makes liking them more easy.
