Everyone thinks I either abandoned them, or abandoned Gaia altogether, and I damn well haven't; posting this journal entry proves I still come on here. You want to know what's up? Fine.
For a good....*thinks* 6 months or so now, my depression issues are really coming back full swing. Things with ex boyfriends, fights with friends, IRL Army s**t, and numerous other factors didn't help either. Then I had my surgery and I went even further down. I stopped coming on AIM, on Gaia, and I really didn't talk to anyone anymore.
And you know what? I'm still like that.
I still don't want to be this social creature that people want me to be. I want to be alone, by myself. What is so hard to understand about that? Its nothing against anyone, as I've mentioned before. It's that I need time to get a handle on things. Maybe once I move home in December things will get better and I'll come around more. But don't expect me to be until then, and don't think its something you did.
I prefer being alone than in the company of others..I'm just not a people person. -_- And I get major s**t for it. So please, PLEASE stop complaining or thinking I abandoned you. I'm having trouble enough with things as it is.
I do miss you all though, don't despair in that. ^__^ I wish more of you had MSN Messenger...I have that on all the time, seeing as how there's not many people on it besides Sai and Mouse. I guess..drop me a PM on here if you need something..? *shrugs*
Until we meet again~
Ace
PS-I felt like being colorful. >> Sue me.
 AlmightyAce · Wed Oct 06, 2004 @ 07:11pm · 2 Comments |
