Everyone has their own cliques. Multiple groups of people huddling themselves together-laughing, smiling, kissing, hugging, fighting and playing. They all feel like they belong, like they all have a purpose. Or at least, they look that way.
I know I'm surrounded by people who think they know me. I don't want to worry them, but I feel like I don't belong. I feel like: if I died in front of them, it would take them at least a few hours to reallize it.
None of us seem to be close anymore. We all just go off to do our own things. Couples kiss and hug. Rivals bait each other to start a fight. Chummy friends run and hug people with a smile plastered on their face. The intellects sit in a corner doing their homework as they talk about school related things. Athletes cram themselves in the doorway to get away from the never ending chatter
Where do I fit in? A friend has said it before, "You always look so depressed when you think no one is looking." I don't want to lie, I just don't feel comfortable in large groups of people. If I'm with a few friends, at least I know I can't neglect them. Only one of my friends know me or so I think... I tell him most things-like how often I cry or when I just want to lay down and die.
 midnight-mystic-dragon · Wed Mar 14, 2007 @ 06:27am · 0 Comments |
