Sugar coated happiness fills my heart to the brim...yet I sit here pondering like I normally do at this ungodly hour of the night. I ponder on my meaning and the meaning of so many other. I think of my past and I think of my future. Is it selfish to absorb myself so utterly in things that no longer matter? Yes I believe it is. All that matters is the here and the now. I read things that make my fragile little heart ache and make me want to shed the tears that do not come. This world is so screwed up that it makes sadism look like a nice cup of hot cocoa on a cold winters day. I recently read somewhere, and I will not say where, that human kind is a illness, that we are parasites. Yes thats true if you think long and hard about it. Humanity has very few redeeming features, very few. We plunder and reek havok on Mother Gaia. yes folks Gaia. Ever wonder where this site got its name? Bet you didn't know it was deeply imbeded with our loving planet. Silly me ranting off on a tangent! Okay. But if we are the illness, what is the cure? Our deaths? I find that meaningless. In all the hours I have dedicated to learning, in all the years I have wasted with my sill notions and my selfish observations, I have come to the conclusion that death is not the answer. If we die so does the chance for us to redeem ourselves to our planet. The answer I fear is our continued existance however cruel that is. If we die out and fade then we are like the calming wind that was meant to sooth away the fears of those who have already passed on, to rejoin this sweet planet we all love dearly.
This is what I think and this is how I feel. This life is all a lie, it is an illusion cast upon us by our own fears. Death is what we fear right? So wouldn't it logically be THE reality. I mean people fear reality correct? And people fear death...shouldn't they be connected somehow?
So this is my sugar coated truth of truths...this is my happiness and my sorrow, don't you think I have the right now to feel sad all the time? If not ponder deeper into yourself and you will see why I feel sad.
 Annal Combustion · Sat Apr 28, 2007 @ 05:56am · 1 Comments |
