Who is to say
Who I am and what I dream?
Why must all these people look to me for help
For their sufferings and pain?
I was not put on this earth to tell peope
What they are to do with their lives and their ambitions.
My broken wings are tired from falling.
I was shot down once and fell here.
My natural aura that is pure and sacred,
Attracted these people to me.
The only one I wish to attract is some who will love me
For me and forever and always.
I thought I met him once.
He was kind and funny;always made me laugh.
We agreed and disagreed,but he never told me if he loved me.
I don't think he even knew,
Though we acted like we both felt the same towards one another.
I thought he loved me and I thought he knew how I felt towards him.
He told me once or twice about someone he wanted when I thought that way.
I never would have guessed that it wasn't me.
I never showed him my wings,so I flew to see her.
She was pretty and briliant,laughed a lot, always happy.
How could I have been so foolish.
How could I not have seen?
I fled with shame away from the next time he saw me.
I never spoke a word.
I covered my ashamed face with my hands
And ran away from the one I wanted to give my heart.
I didn't answer his calls,I didn't answer the door.
I stayed away from him,my heart wouldn't bear it.
When I did choose to no longer hide,
I accepted that it was not me he wanted.
I said I was sick and that I didn't want him to see me ill.
He only laughed like he knew the truth and didn't want to tell.
So we're now still friends and still talk.
I still hold those feelings for him deep inside my heart.
Almost like little girls with white ivory jewelry boxes
With their favorite silver locket with a picture
Of their mother and father in it.
I have my own white ivory jewelry box with all my feelings inside it.
I'm still searching
For a true and everlasting love.
I'm not sure if I will find it soon but I'm sure I will someday.
Untill then,I'm searching and watching the starlit nights for a shooting star
That I will make my wish upon and hopefully it will come true.
I believe with all my heart...it will come true...one day soon.
 Lady_Awai · Thu Mar 31, 2005 @ 06:29am · 0 Comments |
