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I, yet again, have a journal which will not be funny, nor entertaining. If you do not wish to read me disscussing my troubles then this isn't a journal entry for you.
The problem is, when I was 12 I was raped by my first boyfriend. Since then I've had a... complex of which I cannot get close to ANYBODY. The only people I've ever let into my heart further than my outside appearance were but three. My sister Bean, my friend Krystal, and my love Steven.
Now, this entry is about Steven. I love him very much. More than I can say. I treasure the things he give me, like he gave me this Wiccan charm and I wanted to keep it with me at all times so I tied it around my ankle and haven't removed it since.
Well, Steven asks me to be with him, to love him the way that I know that I should, but I cannot love him. I dearly want to love him, more than I can say, but I am uncapable of loving another human being like that again.
I feel I am hurting him, but there is nothing I can do about it.
What can I do?
Rouni
*Not So Evil Laugh* Fu hu hu...