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Don’t know were I am.
Im lost in the dessert sand.
Know were to go. But I can’t stay here.
It’s killing me. Not to know which way to go.
I need you.
But I just lost you.
You were the only one.... the only one that understood.
And now you’re gone... gone for ever!
Why did you have to run in the streets?
Why did you have to go when I needed you the most?
You left me here.
Now it's over.
No friend’s.
No family.
Im an outcast!
You... you were the only one that understand me.
You sead that every thing would be ok Evan when it wasn’t!
You sead, I love you when no one else did.
I trusted you... I trusted you when you sead nothing bad will happen to use.
Now look what you did. You childish fool.
Now you’re dead.
I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU.
Why did you have to die and leave me here?
Why did you go away? Go away when I needed you the most.
Now my life is over. Gone, it has no purpose.
If only I knew.
I was the one that told you. Told you to do what you thought was best.
Causing you to run away!
It’s my fault.
Im sorry I left you down.
I didn’t mean to hurt you.
I just did what I thought was best.
Why did you have to committed suicide?
You know. Thanks to you. Thanks to you my life is HELL.
Know one understands.
Know one care's.
And if they do!
It's just because they don’t want to see me sad.
They don’t care that my best friend just committed suicide over the phone with me.
they don’t understand what it's like to hear a gun shout going off when you on the phone with some one, and it turn's out that they took there dad's gun and shout them self in the head.
I understand that people have problem’s im not saying that mine is the worst out there. i just want people to understand what im going threw.
So they don’t take things that I say are cruel seriously.
But, I have to be honest.
I almost died today. I couldn’t take it.
All these thought's in my head.
The voices, tarring me apart!
I STILL LOVE YOU..

UN NOTTICED.
They say I love you. But they really don’t...
they say they will die for you. But in the end it is you that die.
They say your cool and I love you. But you know that doesn’t really happen.
You wish for just one Pearson to come into your life and change every thing.
It works.
Your wish came true. But what do you do when they notice you?
What do you do?
Do you kiss them? Showing them how much you love them.
But you don’t know.
You can’t trust any one any more.
Much less you’re self.
Then the next minute there gone.
And you’re all alone.
You think there mad at you.
Latter you find they got hit bye a car and they really did love you.
Your parents then find out about every thing.
They hate you.
Your entire friend's find out and there gone.
Know one care's but her.
You feel she is the only one that understands you.
You want to kiss her. You want to hold her tight....
but you can’t.
You wish that she noticed your love for her.
You try talking to her. Showing her your love!
You can’t.
You fear of hurting yourself and her.
Your fear grabs a hold of you.
Your shadow take's over.
You feel that there is no one left for you. The only one for you really was the one you really loved.
The next day there is a huge crash.
Your family doesn’t mind it.
They know you have anger problems and they think you just necked over your dresser.
An hour passed.
They get worried.
The hour turns to a day.
They get concerned.
Then the next day they go to check up on you.
There is a powerful stench.
They open up the door and....
there you are lying in a puddle of blood.
Pistol in hand. And you’re just lying there.
A note in you hand but it is in blood.
Thankfully they can still read it.
It says.
(Where were you when I needed you the most? I was right there. If only you could have seen the trouble I was in. but it was right there and no one saw it. The one I loved. dead. wile me. being un noticed. Vanished even more, but I guess now. im better. im going to meat a man. A man named Jesus. he knows me. And he knows all about my problems. So I made this letter for you. You were the one I loved. but it's ok. it's my fault. I should have reached out to you. But i was afraid. Afraid of getting hurt, and afraid of hurting, you, I couldn’t take the pain any more. I needed a new place to go. there was this pain in side me. Like acid. but no one saw it. I kept it to my self. Well kind of. I couldn’t take people picking on me. calling me name's. Making fun of me, I just couldn’t do it any more. So I made this letter for you. you and all the one's who thought they new me. but they didn’t really. so yea. if only some one new the pain. new the hurt in side then maybe it could have stoped this frome happening.) GOOD BYE. I LOVE YOU ALL EAVEN IF YOU DIDNT LOVE ME.

The next week, at the funeral, the girl sees something. It’s a ghost. But it's not really. It’s the one that loved her. Then another figure shows up. She couldn’t believe it but it was Jesus. The man grabbed the boy's hand and sead. Follow me. I know were you will fit in. and they walked and slowly faded away. The boy ran back and sead. Do not fear. For I am in your heart, and keep this! A necklace appears in here hand. And still she is the only one that can see what is going on.

She saw there was some thing inscribed. It sead,

THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE WITH ME, GIVEING ME THE STRANGTH I NEEDED, EVEN IF YOU DONT THINK YOU DID SOME THING. YOU DID. LOVE, JAKE. Now that she sees how much he loved her, and she keeps it. Now the boy fade's out and still just like in the beginning. UN NOTICED. But happy now,