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WHAT THE ******** DO YOU WANT FROM ME GOD DAMNIT!?!?


Ahem, allow me to explain my ager. this will contain ******** language from the pits of the darkest part of my heart. I am ******** bitter beyond control. I could ******** kill my stupid a** sister. nothing can explain how much Hate I have for her. I have more hate than love. there is almost no love. it makes me sick just to look at her. her face. her her face is like looking at dog s**t that's grown hair, infected by maggots and being eaten by a snake..

I hate her. I truly do. No one listens to me. it's always about her. will I ever get what I want?
I've been so kind, so gentle.. so sweet.. everyday.. I hide what I truly feel.. if I didnt.. I'd cry.. I just want to be noticed as much as she is. with everyone fighting in the family, no one cares about me.. my mother is working, my father never cared and now is dead. good riddance the fuc king scumbag...

The cats could care less, and they fight amongst them selfs..

I just want some attention!! AMUSEMENT!! A ******** PUNCHBAG!!!! GOD DAMN IT ALL!! Why is all this hate in me?
Is there a place I can let out my frustration.. without getting in trouble? Without hurting anyone, is there a way? A place? I'm so disgusted with the world.. I'm never happy.. Nothing is ever right.. I've not been happy since nine years ago since my life changed forever.. I'm just wishing for that day.. When I too might find a place too let my troubles fly away.. I thought I would be giving a yelling blah blah blah, but instead, I just bitched about how much I hate myself.. God I'm such an emo..
One wish.. thats what I want.. I want... To be forever happy..To die happy.. But no one ever truly dies happy do they?