My life is made up of a handful of things....
1. Those I love and care about, including family.
2. My friends.
3. Animals.
4. Myself.
Everytime something happens in any of those, the last one seems to fade more and more. I sometimes think what will happen when I fade away completely, will there be someone else to replace me. And I just hate how my life is a tangled mess of lies.... I hate it. I wish sometimes it would end, stop. I just want it all to disappear. The only problem with that is when it's all gone I see i'm in a white room staring at the ceiling wondering when will I change, how can I change it. When will it stop?.....
I'm hoping that I can change it soon....... Cause honestly.... physical and mental scars.... I'm starting to lose count.....
This is the part where you blow this off go somewhere else and wonder, "Why did I just read that?"
Then I say, "I'm sorry, that wasn't completely true......."
1. Those I love and care about, including family.
2. My friends.
3. Animals.
4. Myself.
Everytime something happens in any of those, the last one seems to fade more and more. I sometimes think what will happen when I fade away completely, will there be someone else to replace me. And I just hate how my life is a tangled mess of lies.... I hate it. I wish sometimes it would end, stop. I just want it all to disappear. The only problem with that is when it's all gone I see i'm in a white room staring at the ceiling wondering when will I change, how can I change it. When will it stop?.....
I'm hoping that I can change it soon....... Cause honestly.... physical and mental scars.... I'm starting to lose count.....
This is the part where you blow this off go somewhere else and wonder, "Why did I just read that?"
Then I say, "I'm sorry, that wasn't completely true......."
