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no, everythings wrong. my mom hates me, im having problems with this guy (again) and also another guy. james wont talk to me, or i wont talk to him. i dont know which one it is. every time i listen to music i get mad of pissed off, or really sad. music used to be my way out, and now i have to find another way. im so sad latley, but i hide it from my friends, so they wont worry about me. i try to have fun, but it seems that every time i do, i get sad afterwards. my mom hasnt been talking to me, and just yelling. ive either been at work or band camp, and im never having any time to hang out with friends. allison is starting to pull away, and i dont want to lose her. i sense somethings wrong with my sister, i dont know what it is, but i know something is wrong. she hasnt claled latley, and her and Cy are probally getting another divorce. i miss my old life. i miss it when my mom loved me. i miss it when i could have fun with out hiding my feelings. if i showed my feelings people would hate me, and they would be hurt by me. i don tknow, its a new school year, a new start. thats all i want, and m getting it. i just hope everything works out....because things really havent been latley.