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So, I've had this crush on Alex for a while now. I could deal; I didn't (and still don't really) think I have a snowball's chance in hell with Alex, but I guess it was still okay to imagine myself with him sometimes even though I didn't think it was going to happen. But last night I was reading his gaia journal and he said in it that he was looking for a good time to ask a certain girl out, because she seems to be over her last boyfriend. Now even though I know that I don't have a chance with him and everything, it still hurt to read that. Oh well. Sucks for me.

My mom wants me to get another job. I guess she's sick of ferrying me around. But Tiffany said that her mom could give us rides home if she starts working there (which she will if I stay) and so that would definitely lighten my mom's load, so I'm gonna talk to her about that. I like my job. I love the people I work with. I don't want to leave.

I've finally got my laptop; I've had it for two days. It's good, and I loff it. I've named her Jenny Shaniqua. I told my manager that and she was laughing. I saw Carlos yesterday too! I hadn't seen him in a while and even though he wasn't scheduled to come to work he came to eat, so I got to see him and give him a hug. And Melissa has taken to being super friendly with me so I'm really happy about that--she's always patting my back or giving me hugs or something, and it's nice. I was complimented a lot by the new guy there and it was a little weird but I found it funny...he was going on about how I was apparently so strong and intelligent and artistic and how I was his ideal woman and stuff, and Mauricio and I were laughing. I didn't know Mauricio spoke as much English as he does; but I'm glad he does. I really need to work on my spanish...

I've been getting weird looks today...stares. Not bad stares I don't think, because snickers and whispers don't follow me, but I think it's because of how I look...which is no different really than any other day, but I'm wearing a spaghetti strap shirt and have been exercising lately so I look thinner. Unfortunately though even though I look thinner my boobs haven't decreased in size, so here I am a thinner looking girl with D sized boobs and so guys riding on bicycles don't look where they're going, instead they're staring at me as I walk by. Damn being well-endowed...

Eh, well. I think I'm done for today.