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I feel a sad song
From inside my heart
I feel as if life's end is near
I cannot say that I don't want to die
Knowing how hard life is
I might as well sacrifice it all
For I will never find love
I will never be satisfied
Spoiled as I am
Maybe me being gone is for the best
I wish I could disappear from the world
Then again
I could wish someone would miss me
Without pain
I wish for my meaningless life to slip away
For eternity, I wish to fade
To the darkness away from the light
Why can't I live life like everyone else?
Carefree and happy
Unafraid of the future and ecstatic?
Is it that bad luck foretold me to stay away?

This world has left me with nothing
But hopes of withering away
For the first time
I've opened up my true feelings
The closed shell everyone sees of me
Happy, cheerful, and lucky
The sorrowful heart within the shell
Angry, sorrowfull, and ruined
This has scarred me
I have gotten almost everything I've asked for
All these gifts, items, and care
I only wanted the most important thing
Praise, quiet, lone, away from everything
I wish to be left alone

I sought to escape this
But I cannot
This life has bound my soul to the realm
Within this shell

I only wish to die without pain