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Laying in my bed, in nothing but my white wrinkled nightgown. It's so musky in my room now, as though I haven't opened a window in to air it out forever. My hair draping across my pillow, under my head, like a messy veil. It hadn't been brushed for practically 3 days. In my arms, nuzzled against my left cheek, under the crook of my neck, something metal. One of my hands' fingers interlocked with it's automailed fingers. Yes, it was one of his old automailed arms. I cuddled it close to me as I lied there, tears trickled down my slightly, sad, smiling face. A glimpse of the sun shown through the window into my room, shining off of the arm, giving it that shimmer that made so many memories come back into play of my mind. Oh how I missed him, I really did, I still do. Never again shall I get to feel that warmth of his body hugging me close to comfort me. No, never again. That part of him, him, the whole part of him, his heart, and body belongs to her now.
I softly whisper his name as my lips meet the fingers of the automail. Kissing softly upon each fingertip. My dog Den wines outside my bedroom door. I can hear my grandmother walking around outside my door sometimes as well. Soft sighs come from her, along with her puffing from her pipe. I miss seeing them, but I hurt so much, I just can't pull myself from my bed, from my room. It's the last place he ever came to be with me, when he needed his arm fixed. I glanced over at my old work bench. How long had it been since I had actually worked on anything? A few days? A week? Months? I missed him too much to do anything anymore. My stomach growled, my eyes were blurry, I felt really weak now. Even if I tried to get up, I probably wouldn't be able to.
One thing I can say at this time now........as my heart continues to break, rip apart, and shatter. My tears fall down with emptiness, his face still in my mind and will always be a part of me.