Aye Corazon Porfavor Descansa
Ugh, it sucks. Im sooooooo confused. Life suxs! lol but it is great at the same time. The only problem is that, I know that I can't have my cake and eat it too ya know? nomas no se puede. and I don't want to hurt anybody that is the problem or I dunoo..I guess it can come down to being selfish. You know trying to get everything I want all the time. BUt thats not fair either. I just wish I could go away for a looong while. More like I wish I knew what I wanted, out of life, out of people in general. Sometimes i worry im not who i think i am you know? like it was all a dream or it was a good idea but now its gone astray. Could it be? that now im so far along in these dark paths that I've truely forgotten what I used to L I V E for. I used to be so open and such a dreamer, and anger has twisted all that into what I am now. So angry all the time. I'm just tired. And i hate being indiffrent, i think I prefer being angry. Cause when im indiffrent then things really don't matter. I try hard but I have no will power. i mean NONE. why am i like this? you know I try to get a good hold of my mind but int he end it doesn't work. I can feel that point of no return you know? where u can either say no and take the road less travled or say yes and go with the flow. CONFUSION domokun
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