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sleepwalking
ok so after opening night for the skool play, my mom and dad said i went sleepwalking!!! i've never done that b4!!! they said i was looking for the sewing machine! i dont even kno how to use one!!! anyway, here r some poems i wrote, if they suck pleaz tell me! and they arent supposed to ryme! k here they r:
Why does my heart race, every time he's close to me?
Do i love him?
Is it possible...for a person such as me...to find happiness?
No, impossible... i cannot find anything but sadness in my future...
For my curse is too deep to be broken by love.
Why does it hurt to love him?
My heart yearns for him...but his does not yearn back.
It hurts so much...I call out to him...but i have no voice...
I want to make the pain stop...but i love him too much to say good-bye.
I will wait for him forevevr...holding onto the dream that he will one day return my feelings...
The evil in hell is nothing compared to the darkness in my heart.
My heart is hollow full of death and silence.
I fell no sorrow or happiness...
I am just a hollow shell... i might as well be dead.
My heart is cold...i cannot be saved.
I hide my emotions for the sake of the one i love.
If i let them free...i could never forgive myself.
My true emotions would cause chaos, and i dont want anyone to suffer like i have.
I will always smile for the sake of my friend's happiness...no matter how sad i am inside...
My heart is not safe...
I hide it in the depths of the ocean...but even there it's not safe.
I want my feeling of love for him to disappear...I want the pain to stop.
I must store my love and pain away...but is any place sake enough?
For now i will lock my feelings up inside me...and keep searching for a place to hide my heart.
The moon is alone...not by choice...but by force.
It's cold...just like my heart...
The moon calls to me...it's the same as me....alone...
I will go to the moon...so we can be alone together...
The moon and i are one...
ok that's it, wat do ya think? my feelings wont b hurt if u hate them, so just tell me wat u really think about them! please be honest!!! 3nodding ok i think thats it for now! except this: i had this dream last night where i was at my friends house, K, but she lived at the mall! her room was so cool! anyway she started talking about video game cheat codes and i got bored so i got up and left, and i was in the mall. so i see this really awesome anime/knick-knack store and im about to head over there to go in when B, the guy who played my husband in the skool play goes in, so i just think o well i'll go in later, but then my friend M, who likes ugly betty, walks into the store and she's trying to talk to me through the glass of the store! and she's got her face pressed up against the glass and i cant understand a word she's saying! to i say: "hold on im coming in!" so then she and i just start talking about random stuff, and another friend, G, comes in and she's looking at these adorable momiji(from fruits baskets), keychains! he's a bunny. and so we just start looking at all the sweet keychains and all of a sudden B is next to us and just looking at the keychains! after that i somehow end up at my house with a packet of cigaretts in front of me. idk how i got them, but i think, wow i might've saved some1 from using these! but then i think, yea right! i'd hav to buy the whole store! and out of no where the cigarett im examining lights itself on fire and i take a puff! i blow smoke out of my mouth and say: "wtf! it doesnt taste like anything!" so on a napkin that appears on the table i smush the cigarett, hardly used, and light another one! and i puff once, then smush out to every single one in the pack!!! then i woke up, so weird huh? and in my dream i wasnt even old enough to buy a pack of cigaretts, and my parents dont smoke!! and when i fell asleep i was thinking of inuyasha and fruits baskets! not smoking!!! well i was thinking how sad it would be if tohru smoked, she'd be very bad, but i only thought that for like a minute then i went back to thinking about inuyasha!!! anyway, mention freaky dreams u've had and comment on my poems!!! thats all for now! thanks for reading!!!!!! 4laugh
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