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The Secret Life Of Blue
Stuff that has randomly happened since I joined Gaia.
What exactly is the meaning of love? I mean so people just randomly throw that word around like it's nothing but that. A word. And how can you tell which term in which they use it. It's so hard to know when it's being used like the word Infatuation. That my fiance just randomly throws around just like the word Love.
I mean if he doesn't love me then why in the hell does he tell me that he does. It must be a male gene or something. I love him, but I'm not sure he uses the term in the right sense even though we've been through alot.
I mean why does he always seem un-interested in everything i say or do?
I'm sorry to confide in my feeling here. But I have to get this out.
I love you Kit, but sometimes I wonder if you even really care or if I'm just a fling. Your little play toy that you can just throw around and toss after use.
I can't deal with the fact that I think that you don't love me and that is what makes me want to cut myself like i do so often. I know that it's no reason but I sometimes consider dieing everytime I think that you might break-up with me. I consider me dieing because I have no world or life without you.
You are my world. my one and only. Don't play with my emotions is all i ask of you.





 
 
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