Well folks, here it is. The first entry, but what to say?
*sigh*
I suppose I can start with what I'm feeling. My father has been hounding on me lately to start my life and start the plans I've made before everything around here changes. And I tell him I understand and he goes "No, you don't understand, you don't get it and saying that you do is wrong." He doesn't understand the concept that even though I don't have any real world experience I do understand. I'm trying to set my simple plans into motion but it all revolves around one simple face.
I need a job.
But that's what's so hard. Finding a job, I've already said that I wouldn't go into fast food. I've made that mistake before and to tell you the truth I was glad I got fired after a week. *shakes head* Anyways I'm trying to find a job elsewhere but a lot of places like banks and smaller business that seem to have endless supplies of paperwork require a resume. Yeah right, me? A resume? Dream on, that requires me to have worked for business suit type places and I can tell you that probably won't happen.
So that leaves me to find whatever I can, small places like bowling alleys, wal-marts and so on. But there's only so many places like that in town and Dad doesn't seem to get the fact that once I send in an application I can't force them to give me a job. All I can do is wait. I mean hell he wants me to make a plan EVERY DAY to do something positive for my life. Oh, well that's all well and good but how much can I do right now? Not a whole hell of a lot, and I can't tell him that because he'll just say I'm making up excuses and that I should take my head out of my a** and get on with in.
Oy.......
I love the man dearly but he just knows he to make me sooooo $#%@ing angry, it's not even funny!
(I'm pretty sure you people can guess what kind of theme I'll be going with. sweatdrop )
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