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Long a** journal tiem!
I only expect my true friends to read the whole thing, if you don't want to chances are it doesn't apply to you
Sorry guys for being so mean lately
Okie dokie, I've been such a b***h lately and I thought I would explain everything to everyone.
I've never felt 100% well, I think there is something wrong with my body, so I kinda stand with my hips forward, it's weird. Anywho I have really bad pain in my back,a and legs. Recently it's been getting a lot worse and hurting me to the point of crying. My grandfather is in the hospital with cancer and a broken shoulder, my dad smokes, diabetes runs in my family and so does chronic depression, I have breathing problems, I've fainted in school because of them. I have to hide my sexuality from my parents and some of my friends, yes, I'm bi . My dad said that if things didn't improve in my house he's going to leave my mom. My great grandma wont accept that I'm my mother's daughter and constantly asks me who I am. She hates my mom for something my ******** aunt did, that sluttybitchcrackwhorealchaholicuntbastrard (the list goes on and on), anyway back to me, every friend I've ever made as long as I can remember has left me after one year and that time is coming up again, I don't want to believe it but I didn't the last time either. I think I really do love one of my friends, more then anyone else that I've ever met He's the second person I've ever been nervous talking to, the first didn't turn out well. I don't think I'm ready to get hurt again. I'm pretty loved, I wont deny that I'm popular at school but it's a problem because all my friend fight each other. There are more things but only certain people I want to tell them to.
I hope you guys can understand what I'm going through, I really do love you guys but I don't think I can go on like this much longer.
 xxHybridAngelxx · Mon Jan 21, 2008 @ 01:59am · 1 Comments |
Oh Jazzy, I know things aren't going well. And they probably wont for awhile.