Alright, I admit I'm kinda scared to post this particular entry... All I ask is that you be absolutely sure you're ready to read this. done yet? alright then... here goes...
Last night I had a dream. it was wierd, and it felt really real. like I was actually doing it. what makes me so scared is that I was killing. a lot. two assault rifles firing wildly is what I remember... The scariest part? my mom woke me at three in the morning asking me if I was alright. I was crying at the time (not like *sob sob* but just tears)... and I was hoarse. my mom said she wasn't surprised... there was sadistic laughter coming from my room... quiet sadistic laughter, but still...
Putting two and two together, I'm insane... and sadistic.
It's uncharacteristic of me to be scared like this... but it might be because I saw a lot of familiar faces among the *gulp* dead... (if she reads this) I'm talking about you, love. you too, Gerry. JT, Grave, Mandy, Kiya... you were all in the pile as well...
it scared the s**t out of me, but on the very small plus side, if I ever go to the military, I won't mind the senseless slaughter... Dry humor there, sorry...
the fact that everyone was fighting today did not help at all... and everyone getting on my case at school at home...
I don't know how much longer I'll last like this... *sob*
Song for today: What I've Done (Linkin Park)
DG Gunslinger · Thu Feb 21, 2008 @ 10:05pm · 0 Comments |