I remember the first day I heard ICP. It was ’My Axe’ and I know I became a fan from then not a Juggalette just a fan then. I supported Jim as his Juggalo self though. Buying him shirts and random s**t, Listening to the CD's after school. One day I just signed up for a ICP forum and found out about the carnival for real. I became intrigued and found comfort in it. People say that's the day I became a Lette but back then I still didn’t use the name. I wasn’t going to label myself until I knew it all, until I fully understood. In 06 everything fell apart for me. My moms drinking got worst, My relationship was messed up, I wanted to end my life and I had no friends so I didn’t ever think life would get better. The only thing that cheered me up was that ICP forum. I vented in my own post to the world, never expecting any response but I got so much. Juggalos and Juggalettes on my side, befriending me and showing me utter kindness. They spoke how the carnival and the people in it saved them that's when I found the strength in the carnival myself. That was the day I dubbed myself Juggalette. Some others dissed me for they didn’t understand they thought it was a gang and it wasn’t! We’re all outsiders brought together by one thing, Family the one place in the world we really belong. Being a Juggalo/Juggalette doesn’t have to do with how much s**t you have of ICP, doesn’t have to do with the face paint or any other bullshit. The one thing that hold us all together is the carnival! Everyone can hate but we all stand tall together. We’re not haters, posers or nut jobs who want everyone else to die. We’re just one big family looking into each other for guidance and life. I’ve met so many other Los/Lettes on the street and as soon as we hit hands we feel that bond! Finding another who follows there own way of life and loves the carnival and the people in it as much as I do is someone I get along with the second we look into each others eyes. I live my life to the fullest and yeah I can agree some with the name Juggalo have made bad decisions sometimes in life but were all human! We all have different views and lifestyles. Some are ninjas, some twizid serial killers and some just laid back stoners but in the end we’ll always be connected back to the carnival, our real home. So when someone hates on you F*CK THEM! We don’t need there s**t we know who were our and I’m proud to be a Lette. I wear the name with pride and I cherish the carnival and my family. You can talk all the bull crap you want but it doesn’t bother me cause I have my family to fall back on, the people with the same love and respect for each other and the same carnival high I have. So stop trying to change me I’ll always be this way
Atomic Exotic Community Member 
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