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Weds. November 3rd, 8:52pm...

Im sitting here right now and I feel kind of nervous. I keep getting all these envelops and packets from colleges... and my aunt is filling out aplications and all this other crap and Im ******** nervous, because its really hitting me that I have to move on soon and have a family of my own and go to college and pay bills and s**t like that and its ******** making me so nervous...

:pants: I'm not really sure what to do right now and I could use some advice if anyone reads these things....

I'm just not sure if I should worry about this stuff or just let it go. And now I have to go to another sat prep course again since I ******** up so bad the first time . Gee thats al I need... more homework and actual scool to get up for on the one day sanctioned for me to sleep Saturday!! Oh well I guess its for the better.....

Perhaps some poetry will calm me down....

My heart hurts

It aches

It burns

I want to get free

But there are chains that bind me

They wont let go

And now I know

Forever I'll feel the pull

Of unwanted restrictions

Undying Addictions

And the painful blistering of worries

I now know

what I need

Is to let go.......

laters......