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Yo.

I... almost did my dare.

Anyway. Earlier, I went to the pool. It was fun, I hadn't been there in a while. ^__^
And when we got back, I got on Gaia. Then my mom kicked me off, then I played Fire Emblem. Then Brittnae made me come outside.

We were out there for a while, chatting. Me, Heather, and Brittnae, along with the other little kids over at the park, mainly just Valirey and Jonathan. After about an hour, Brittnae and I went to go get Zak, but he wasn't there. Then we went back to the park for a while. Then we called Zak when he got home. We had barely convinced him to come outside. The only reason he did was because Brittnae was all like, "But, Zaaaaaak! I'm leaving in a few days!"
So Zak was all like, "FINE."

So we were out there for a while, and then I got that wierd feeling again. I didn't mention it? Well, I'll explain.
Lately, just out of the blue, I'll start feeling sick. Not physically, but mentally/emotionally. It's wierd. I just feel all deppressed and 'get away from me' and I can hardly talk to anybody without flustering myself.

So anyway, I thought I had managed to get away from the park and to the railroad tracks unnoticed, but when I was about a little over half-way there, I looked back and saw Zak coming up and following me. I was all like, 'Darn!' and went to the railroad tracks and started walking.
He came up and started walking with me, and we were kinda silent for a few seconds until he said,
Z: "I hate it when she does that."
K: "What?"
Z: "Brings me out here for nothing."
Pause.
K: "She wanted to talk to you."
Z: "Well, she needs to start talkin', 'cause she brings me out here, and she says nothing."
K: "Well... you talk to her."
Z: "No!"
K: "Why?"
Z: "'Cause."
K: "You know... she's getting all upset 'cause she thinks you don't like her anymore--"
(*cough* FYI, we're talking about Brittnae here...)
Z: I don't like her anymore."
K: "-- and she's trying her hardest to get over you."
Another pause.
Z: "... I'm just tired of playin' games..!"
Silence for a while.
K: "Hey."
Z: "What?"
K: "I was dared to do something... to ask someone out."
Z: "Who?"
K: "... You."
Z: "Oh."
K: "So... what... would you say if I did?"
Z: "... I don't know. That's a tough decision."
K: "How so?"
Z: "Well, I mean, we've been really good friends for two years now. If we were to get together, but then break up..."
K: "A good friend would be at loss."
Z: "Exactly. So... like, afterwards, we'd walk up to eachother, and it'd be all like, 'Uhh, hi.'" He sticks his hand out like he's shaking someone's hand.
K: "Haha, yeah..."

So that's how that conversation went.
Just then, Brittnae came running over. We all talked for a few minutes and we were walking along the railroad tracks, when we see Britt's stepdad come out of her backyard and call for her. She runs over, and she comes back a few seconds later. Apparently, she asked if she could go to my house, 'cause she said, "If I'm not over at Kelsey's in a few minutes, I'm grounded and in big trouble..!" So Zak calls and asks if he can go to my house, so we all jump on the trampoline for a while. After they both went home, I sat on the trampoline, thinking to myself about what Austin said about love never fading, so I was trying to decide if I still loved/liked Zak anymore...

And that's it. Sayonara.