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i put your problems before mine.
and it makes me happy.
because i know i mean something to you.
i know i'm there for you, supporting you.
this friendship is mutual.
and that's why,
i'm looking forward to seeing it grow. (:

plus, we have some pretty hilariously sick moments.

i love you, haley.
:D

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i admire you.

you're so deep.
you're so real.
you're this small girl in this big mess of a world,
looking for your place in it,
searching,
looking.

and i know, knowing you,
that you're going to find that place.
you're going to find that fulfillment.
and be happy.

because you,
are amazing.
and i hold you dearly to my heart.

and if you can't get there by yourself,
i'll help you along the way.

- -

i don't deserve my girlfriend.
amy, you make me ridiculously lucky.
two years and going, you've made me so happy.
and,
i can't believe the things i put us through.
with all the time we have, i'll be making it up to you with everyday.

- - -

she fills my body with a warm sin.

- - -

one day,
i want to not attend some thrashy metalcore concert.
and instead go to this melodic, coffee shop indie performance.
all deep, with the crowd swaying side to side to the guitar strumming,
lighters in the air,
eyes closed.

- - -

you're hurting because of me.
because it's all my fault.

can i wash away your bruises?

- - -

boston will always remind me of you.
we're never going to leave each other, okay?
we're too much connected.
i want to keep you close to me.
even if we grow old onto two separate coasts of this country.
or not on the same country at all.
i want us to be kept close.

i love you, joy.
you've carried me to something greater.

- - -

we were beautiful.
we were two cars heading the opposite directions on the same highway.
we crashed into a fire that glowed every single color of the spectrum.
you pulled my focus out when we laid next to each other, girl.
we shared so much.
from dreams to inner thoughts that nobody knew.
you know that phone conversation from 10 to 3?
you know skipping buses and classes just to be with each other?

we were beautiful.

and,

we weren't meant to stay.

and i,

after the pain,

am just fine

with that.