I dont think it's just my heart aching again....
I just dont know what to do anymore.....
I feel everyone being pulled out of my grasp.....
or me pushing them away.......
I dont want to blame anyone.......
It problaby is my fault just like the rest.......
it's always my fault......
it's never anyone else....
it's just my own insecurity......
I wanted to hold my friends so close.....
but i didnt want them hurting me........
so i pushed them away.......
for those I've hurt.....
to you i might be scum......
i say sorry........
i problaby the lowest being in this world......
and if you were close to me....
it was my insecurity holding me....
look at me....
i've lost my best friends.....
i've lost my family.......
i've lost everything..........
and it really is all my fault.....
I was and always be an a**.....
I was no good......
and never was....
in grade school I was the fat ugly chick.....
and i still am.....
it suits me.........
cuz inside i really am ugly.......
I've driven people away and I can only say sorry....
I'm truly sorry........
This is my first confession....
there will be more.....
 oxoEndranceoxo · Sat Aug 02, 2008 @ 02:50am · 0 Comments |
