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I have a few more weeks left to start classes in college, but beyond the point, as I meet new friends, the old ones seem to slowly fade away.
I'm sorry I was cold to a lot during the past 2008 year, but over and over life has been blown in my face. And I know that's probably the lamest excuse you've ever heard in your life, but to me, that's no excuse. That's how life WORKS. A test, perhaps? But even then, some kept me around, some completely gave up. I feel relationships I have with some people will never be mended together the way it used to, and that's really sad.
If I decided to keep myself locked up like I did in the 6th grade, would the wounds in my heart be shallow? Back then, I honestly thought I would never find the friends I thought were right for me, or the love of my life. But when 7th and 8th grade and high-school came around, that all changed. I met Beverly. I met Falon. I met a lot of people who I really did think I could stay friends with.
However, it seemed that was all a movie life that wasn't going to stay that way.
The memories will never go away, and it makes it a good thing. Something that made me smile about my life and what was going on. But now, one by one, it all fades away, and soon nothing will be left from it. Just like what most of the people's lives ended up being in the end. Just high school friends who faces you can't even remember, no matter how hard you try.
So, if you feel, sever this bond of friendship. All I am saying is true friends stick by eachother, and it seems like most never kept up with me anyways. I haven't even felt like I sticked around for other people as well. Memories will stay in the mind, but if you have no feelings toward it, it's pretty much pointless, don't you think?