well the first thing that happend this month was well blake was going back to ny it seems long ago now but its only been maybe 2 weeks well we been arguing extra latly i think he was torn by going home and staying but i couldn't support him and the arguments were tearing at my phycy so much that two nights befor he was supposed to leave he said i was going to be alone when he left that i had no friends i felt so bad and went to bed and was still feeling bad the next day i took 14 of my pills and was going to go to work i didn't even tell blake what i did tho i think i wanted his attention or somthing i think thats why i did it confused sweatdrop stupid huh? but then i called my mom and told her i loved her and shes like whats wrong and i blureded out that i took 14 pills she called 911 and rushed over and yelled at blake WHAT DID YOU DO i was in the hospital for two days and he was leaving back for new york my mom asked him if he wanted to visit me in the hospital theres not much to do there but watch a few channels on tv and be there for me he said its one thing to be with bring but its another thing to have nothing to do CAN YOU BELEIVE IT he said that he would visit me tho if i didn't get out of the hospital befor he left but he didn't realy care about my health or anything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!next thing that happend in thes past four months that i remember is jessica had a concert she was going to be doing with her band her NOW ex boyfriend s in the band but he gets so stressed out he takes things out on people and when i told jessica i wanted to hear her sing she says she'ld be imbarist witch i found surprising because she sings infront of me all the time now i know its cus of her stupid band kinda leader or ex well any way they were going to be playing at a bar and had to be 21 or over to JUST PLAY MUSIC so we can die for our countery at 18 but not drink a beer?im not one for drinking but thats still messed up. it be ok cus every ones 21 in the band sept jess and me and i just wanted to watch and they would have to lie to say there gaurdians there with them to play there so they were going to lie and her boyfriend saifd if SOME people that WERENT INVITED werent HERE it make things easer and i fel;t like staying just to get back at him but i didn't want to ruin things for jessica so i left. the most resent thing that happend last night was i spent the night at Danils but i lost my medison so my mom got mad and i had to try to find it and it ruind the time that me and danil should have had to watche tv and play video games cus by the time i gave up and went to my moms to gret meds and back i had to go to sleep for orintation whitch was a big waist of time and i was so tired i slept alot and didn't get to go to queens tea cus i couldn't get a ride and the bus that would take me and dan there would make us walk two miles and take two hours and we be late anyway so not worth going.oh well but i got things from ebay watched net flix weith mom and visiting tanya tommorrow starting school on tuesday hope to wright about exiting things soon cya 4laugh whee 3nodding heart biggrin wink exclaim
 redfoxgreeneyes13 · Wed Aug 13, 2008 @ 12:44am · 0 Comments |
