Mood: Very Calm...and at the same time, Blurred by confusion
Currently Listening To: "Aoi Hitomi Theme" - Escaflowne Series
Currently Listening To: "Aoi Hitomi Theme" - Escaflowne Series
The song is just so serene and peaceful. n.n It's a good feeling.
My parents...are still...well, you know. I'm at the point where I don't care anymore. All I could think about was Chritmas, because it would be the first Christmas where I'd be getting a lot of stuff, since my brother was getting a new computer.
Now, I'm just wondering if we'll make it Christmas.
I'm glad it doesn't snow during Christmas. It'd be too sad.
I just...I don't mind if they get divorced. It's THEIR choice, and I really want what's better for them both. However, when I get greedy about it...
If I stay with dad, it'll be like a boot camp. And if I stay with mom, they'll be no more computer time, no more playstation...it's like I'll lose either way.
So what do I want? Better for myself, or for my parents? I feel pathetic that I can't just say my parents without a doubt.
I haven't been crying over the small things anymore. I just get sad, you know. Over the little things.
I didn't get to see it, but in Full Metal Alchemist, Major Hughs died. It made me really sad.
And I thought "Why? He's just a fictionous character...why am I so sad?" It's really silly, but I can't help but frown when I think about it. I guess it was just because he was a really good character.
He had a family that he really loved. A wife...
A daughter. Heh, he was always talking about his daughter if you noticed. n.n He was always saying stuff like. "Look at this picture of Emily! She's 3 now!"
They were...happy you know. A happy family. And then he just...died. I really don't know how, because I didn't watch it...but it just really gets to me.
How great of a family man he was.
What if my dad was Major Hughs. Would we be that happy family?
I know, I need to get in touch with reality again. I lose sight of things so quickly.
If you could fade away to a world where everything was going to be okay for a little while...how would you change? If you had a guarantee that things were gonna be okay, and you were gonna make it through. What could a person give for that?
If it snowed there on Christmas, would it still be sad?
P.S. - And I know it may sound like silly words by a girl who dreams of a world untouched by reality, but to that girl who wants a happy snow, it means a lot. Thanks.
~Tessie (a.k.a. Iia)~
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;_; That dude...dies? I only saw one episode, and he seemed to be a funny guy...Poor family.