Wow.... this week has just been.....Wow. Everybody involved in this whole fiasco has been hurt and battered and torn open and exposed.... it's been hell. Mishi and I have finally talked out at least some of our issues. He's like my big brother now, I have his back and he has mine. I love Ryan. Apparently it was obvious and Mishi knew before I did. It's just.... strange. This whole thing kind of has me reeling still. I'm sure as the next couple of days go by things will settle even more, at least I hope they do. I hope that Ryan will be willing to give me another chance eventually, though I know it's too soon to ask that of him. Anywho.... Yeah. There a few things I regret this past week but the past is unchangeable and so I move onwards with my life, a little bruised and battered but, for the most part, better.
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