A day like any other
School from eight to three
Homework from three to four
Check email from four to who knows
Clicking through the junk I find a message
My heart aches, beating faster as I open it.
“I’m sorry,” it says “I’ve been horrible”.
“I’m sorry;” it says “I don’t think before I act”.
“I’m sorry,” it says “I’ve been an a** and a b***h”.
“I’m sorry,” it says “you deserve better”.
“I’m sorry,” it says “I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry”.
I read it through twice.
Think and rethinking, trying to understand
Trying to read the sincerity
Memories flood back.
I’ve seen this before
I knew what was coming
I waited for the right words to come
To figure out how to say my part,
Trying to push back the pain.
“I don’t know,” I replied “if I can accept this”.
“I don’t think,” I replied “I’m sorry is enough”.
“I can’t speak,” I replied “for others, only for myself”.
“I don’t know,” I replied “if I can accept this”.
I send it off, my hands numb.
One click and its whisked away
Another click and a response returns
“I understand” it says “replying is enough”
“You don’t understand” I type “You don’t know my story”
“You don’t understand” I type “You don’t know what I’ve been through”
“You don’t understand” I type “how badly this hurts”
“You don’t understand” I type “what’s at stake”
“You don’t understand” I type “you don’t, you don’t”
Tears sting my eyes
My message is sent another received.
“Fine” it said “I don’t understand.”
“Fine” it said “I never understand”
Tears fall as I log off
That was it.
No sincerity, no remorse.
For that person, I was nothing
Just a bug, tissue, bad grad
A virus easily deleted;
I served my purpose.
Now I was being discarded.
To me, that person was more.
They were a friend, an ally
A person I trusted
A person I would die to defend.
A person that just destroyed me
Tears fall as I realize what happened.
My day comes to an end.
Bedtime at nine o’ clock
Cry until my tears run dry from five to who knows
Shuro
I recently pretty much lost a friend. I wrote this thinking of that. Comments are nice, but not necessary. I just needed it off my chest.
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