More emotional torment. I feel like I need some romantic company. Nothing serious, just in the realm of movies and hugs, I guess. Something to get my mind off of a lot of things maybe. I feel like I should start dating again, because it's been more than a couple months since I've been officially severed from my relationship (I don't care about the actual whats and whens about that anymore... -_-). I've already cried my tears about being abandoned for someone else, and again when I felt like I was lied to the entire time, so I think I'm done with that part of moving on. I just want to feel warm again...
I'm trying not to have anyone in mind though, because that would mean nothing but more hurt. Which really leaves me in a pickle, because I really have to trust someone completely to be close to someone, but I've also got to refrain from moving into the only people I feel that way about. I honestly don't think I want to try to date any of my friends anymore, because each time it seems to ruin something special that we had before hand. Though, I can't just jump into a stranger's arms because I'm unwilling to risk my friendships for maybe a short period's worth of comfort and affection. It's a pickle indeed.
Now isn't the best time to want to follow my feelings either, because they're definitely not going to make the right decisions at all... =_= So, I suppose I'll just curl up with a blanket until this urge to search out "love" ceases, and hopefully nobody avoids me afterward. -_- *cuddles air*
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Reluctant Protagonists
We walk on two legs, not on four. To walk on four legs breaks the law. What happens when we break the law? What happens when the rules aren't fair? We all know where we go from there; back to the house of pain...
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