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i used to hve this freind alex he was awesome. we knew eachother since preschool.our bond was unseperable we did everything together including going emo.but emo went to far for him. alex went suicidal i asked him y.he said the one he lovved was the one he couldnt hve.on february 14th last year he killed himself.he was gonna jump off the school roof.i tried to grab his arm. i caught him he told me to elt him go that he couldnt take it anymore.i said wat couldnt he tke.he said he loved me but he couldnt hve me because of some reason i still dont know about.then i realized i loved him to.i pulled him up kissed him and for that one kiss i was happy as anytime before that.but he said that he will always love me he tried to jump i grabbed him again he kept pushing my wrist away i was crying and crying while this was going on then.......................he finally broke free of my grip.....he fell and died.....i cant help but feel responsible for his death.......i wish i could see him again so i could kiss him and say i loved him more than anything else in the world...and that i would die for him....i still do love him...and i will always love him