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i dont think i beleive in love anymore the guy i love well...............he says he likes me....but thats the problem "like"not love...this worlds never gonna turn out how i expect it....i try so hard somtimes it hurts....ive been dressing up to impress him i dont think it works i only write in this stupid gaia journal to keep me from killing or cutting myself....when im writing or typing rly the pain gets vented out to the writing...i just love that guy so much and it sounds so stupid cause my freinds tell me not to but still i say i love him...now and again i try to keep myself alive but its not to late to die i guess...stillit hurts so much...i mean i love him i utterly completely with all my heart and devotion absolutely possitively without a doubt love him but he flirts with so many other girls...it kinda brakes my heart slower and slower and for some reason the words i wanna say dont come out right.....maybe it would be better if i was dead...or maybe not...guess ill never know emo