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~This damn floor is so uncomfortable, I should know since i slept on it all last night (or at least I lied down as I kept tearring up every few minutes). Last night I had been introduced to a whole new take on life, a completely different conflict to add to this burning fire of burdens. When I realized at that time I couldn't handle the rejection, the nothingness I'd inheireted from the talk, I felt like my life had ended and there was no point in trying for something I may never accomplish. But then I looked back before I knew you and i knew then that life would never be the same without. I realized that I have to try. I can't stand to be a failure all my life. I won't let this get in our way... Now I feel as if I'm doing this all wrong. My stupid mistakes and my past experiences have guided me to feel as if everything I attempt will end up in disaster (and it usually tends to happen to be against myself.) This hurts me to think that I may be the one hurting other people, especially those who I love deeply with all of my heart. I don't want that at all. What I want is for you to be happy, no matter what cruel pain you force me to endure. I love you, and I wish I could see in the mirror what you see in me. "Please don't tell me that I'm the only one thats vulnerable. A guy like you is impossible to find (and I'm not just trying to quote Secondhand Serenade.) I wish there was some way you could see what I'm going through without making you upset or angry, or maybe even scared. At least so you'll understand why I'm acting this way. Please don't be mad at me. Don't pity me like I'm just another chapter in your life. You mean the world to me and without you I would be broken; the way you made me feel last night.

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