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I'm starting to feel like an alien in my own home. I'm realizing my parents faults even more and I'm having a hard time tolerating them.
Isaac is acting like a brat and bullies me every chance he gets. I should retaliate but I'm afraid of my father and the consequences of hitting him. He is disabled (bipolar and autistic), but that's no reason to treat me like crap. He swears at me, calls me stupid, throws stuff at me, and just downright tortures me. But if I so much as tell him he's acting immature, or if I tell him he's acting like a jerk or a brat he cries and I get in trouble. Then he comes up with these situations where I'm evil and horrible. I'm told that I should forgive him, and I know the bible says I should forgive but I'm finding that very hard to do. I'm sick of it and I just want to scream.
I've realized nothing is good enough for my mom. She can't appreciate what she has and wants more. I think that's why she shops. She never had money as a kid and couldn't buy stuff she wanted. So now she is overjoyed with buying everything and anything, and eBay is only an excuse to keep doing it. She wants to be rich, she wants all these expensive things.
Then their is my dad who is okay with our life, despite having two emotionally unstable children. But he tries to set an example and you can tell he's faking it. It gets so annoying. Part of it is he's trying to accommodate my mother who can't have what she wants, and the second part is he's trying to teach his children. But I mean come on! You're not fooling anyone. Give us a little credit okay, we know when you're faking it.