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i fail at life. I can't cook anymore. I'm not prepared for stuff at all. I hear my parents talk about it whenever I'm not around. I hear my sister yell it to me whenever I do something wrong, and my little brother rubs it in my face. i don't know what to do. I feel like yelling. I feel like crying. I just feel.. something inside of me wanting to do something bad. When my sister yelled at me, I heard a tiny voice in my head yell, 'Yeah well f*** you!' and whenever my parents take something away from me because I'm doing it wrong, I just get this image of stabbing them with a knife, or something sharp nearby. I just don't know what to do. I feel sick whenever I see my sister or brother doing something right. God they're making fun of me right now. Wondering what I'm writing, porn? God damnit how low can you go? F*** man, I just want to leave these people. They don't even act like family toward me, unless if I act different, or somewhat like them. emo