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So the sad reality of my life right now is a friend from my recent past was hit and killed by a drunk driver this September. I've been going through a lot of different feelings and such since then. This is as good a place as any to write a bit about it. Honestly, it's hard to see life for whatever it really is while this is on my mind. How can I be positive? There are stages for these kinds of things, I know, but it's a slow process. From what I can recall it's been a pattern of.. shock, denial, horror, fixation, paranoia, numbness, depression, and some anger. This site hits the mark pretty well on what it's been like for me: Violent Death. and just when I think it's getting better, it isn't. I haven't had the time to think about it enough. She doesn't seem like she's gone, but I know she is. I want to have my own life, too, but all this has been very exhausting. Just don't drink and drive, America. Don't drive recklessly either. This wasn't a minor accident; it was a full disregard for another human being. She's missed every day.. a leader, an angel, a helping hand- all these words describe who she was.