Mood: Ehh...Both happy and sad.
Currently Listening To: "Nobody Wants To Be Lonely" - Ricky Martin ft. Christina Aguilera
Currently Listening To: "Nobody Wants To Be Lonely" - Ricky Martin ft. Christina Aguilera
Yeah, the title is just the chorus of the song. x3 xP
First the Good News:
~ I'm going to homecoming with my friend, Cody. NOT BOYFRIEND!!! FRIEND!
~ My grades are good.
~ Chesea's Birthday is Sunday.
~ I made the tennis team.
Bad News...this is gonna be lengthy. *sigh*:
There's this group at school, and I NEVER liked them, but again I NEVER did anything to bother them. I never talked to them, touched them, went near them. Yet they are ALWAYS making life more difficult. Why? I mean, I try my very hardest not to let anything anyone says get to me, but I can't help but hurt. I'm not a lesbian. I don't have anything against them, but I am not one, and it does hurt when they call me that. They talk about me when I'm right there, and I can't do a thing about it. You'd think that this would get old and I'd get over it, but I can't. I didn't ******** do anything to them, and they go and make a fool out of me. Nobody believes me, but everyone believes their lies, and It's too much. And they laugh at others, like the mentally challenged ones who don't realize that they're laughing at them and not with them. How can people pull that s**t?! Have they no shame?! I just want it to stop. I never wanted to be "popular", and I still don;t, but to be jusged and treated by almost EVERYBODY...it's just so lonely and it's hard to be myself anymore. I just wish I..or they...could go away for a while. Maybe then I wouldn't feel so selfconcious or insecure.
My mom. I can talk to her about anything...but what if you KNOW she's doing something bad? Icould tell dad, but he'd get really mad and yell at me, mom and my brother. But...she's been...everything she tells me is wrong...she's doing them.
She gave some guy her cell phone number.
She showed a picture of herself to another guy.
She says I can't read her conversations because they're bad, and I know exactly what she's doing.
She stays up until early hours of the morning having those conversations with guys.
I don't want her to get hurt. And now it's like she's just as bad as daddy, and who am I supposed to trust now? I mean, yeah, it's her business, and not mine...but it's disturbing.
The last time I checked, mom and dad were still married.
I just feel alone. No family to trust...few friends there when I need. It's just getting so out of control and so hard.
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