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I don't understand... I just...I feel so empty on this inside... I know it's almost Christmas and I should be happy... right?.... but the thing is... I'm not. My family doesn't celebrate any traditions anymore, not since about two years ago... and I was alright with that but... I've changed... alot. I actually miss decorating a Christmas tree and meeting up with my cousins and other assorted family for one big get together where we all can just have fun and hang out until someone does something unbelievably stupid that get's all of us in trouble... but that's all changed... last year we spent Christmas at my aunt's boyfriend's house where everyone was preoccupied with spanish music, assorted drinks, strangers that I have no idea who they are (probably his friends or something), so feel so isolated... so alone... *sigh* oh well, I have my I-pod... maybe I can drown my sorrows (and that crappy spanish music... no offense to anyone) in my music and just stay in the garage like last year and write... especially now that he removed the t.v. ...

Now for the Ranting portion of this Journal instead of sadness... time to get angry...

Alright! I know Christmas is a time where alot of you get many presents from your parents, siblings, grandparents, and others. But here's what I see!!

One! I've heard over the radio and on the internet that people have gone and begun to steal Christmas trees... What... the ******** is wrong with people?!?! Stealing Christmas Trees?!!?!? How low can they ******** get?!?! It's Christmas for Christ's sake! Not Jackmas! It's a time for giving! Not taking things illegally so you can have a symbol of "Christmas" Spirit?!?! Seriously?!! What the ********?! Damn lazy a** people taking trees and putting people out of business...

Two! I hear many... and I mean many! People in my family complain that "oh we're gonna get crappy gifts this year because everyone is broke".... No **cking duh! It's the financial crisis! Everyone is broke! There are no exceptions! Everyone is gonna get crappy gifts! and just the fact that they have the gall to say that during a time of giving just pisses me the ******** off!! It's not right man! Just not right!!! If they complain anymore I swear I'm gonna go ballistic! As for me... I didn't ask for anything this Christmas... no seriously... I never gave 'em a list or nothing... and I don't even know what I want... one thing I did actually want I bought with my own money... AvP:2: Gold Edition... back to online play for me!!! Whoo!!

Now it's time for the High School Rant!! If you don't wanna read/hear/ whatever. Just skip it and go to the end!

One -(dash)- Two!! They have gone mentally insane! I'm not kidding! It's actually worse than before! Which is scaring me a little bit. The freshman believe they have power over those damn sophomores... and the sophomores... don't exactly agree with them (I'm not included in the idiotic freshman... or freshmores as I call them) So basically all hell's broken loose with more obnoxious actions and words! Hoo(f##king)ray...

Two-(Dash)-Two!! Even has erupted! When cops have to break apart two freshman and handcuff them so they'll stop wailing on one another (something I found hilarious I might add seeing them in the cop's hand just getting into high school instead of just getting out...) you know something is going wrong... I seriously do not doubt that by the end of the year there will be a long riot that will ultimately destroy the school's reputation once and for all... (Whoo!!! Hoo!!! Freedom! Go! Go Riot Now!!! Riot so I can get the f##k out!!)

Three-(Dash)-Two!!! Mid-Terms Suck! Let's just say my english teacher is an idiot!! He gave us a study guide that would tell us "everything we would need to know about the test" and guess what... it only had a very small portion of the study guide on the test itself! So I failed! Hooray! (Again)

So in the end, I failed. (Most) People are greedy sons of- ok! Time for me to cut this short because I have things to do! I Miss everything about my old life... and my old self... Because I've changed dramatically... especially my mind and the way I see things... I feel like I'm 18 instead of my real age... which isn't that great to be honest... well everyone... I'm out... see ya around... maybe...