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Well, I only went to work for 30 minutes today...That's because...My grandpa died at 2 this morning...So my boss let me and my step-dad off for the day. My mom went to where he was to go pick out a headstone today. I know this is going to make me sound like a terrible person, but I haven't cried yet. I've gotten close to crying a couple times but no actual tears have occured. I wasn't all that close to my grandpa, but I did see him on a regular basis. (well...once every few months) I think to myself, I can't believe he's gone. I sit here and just tell myself I'll see him tomorrow or next week but in all reality he's really gone. but I stil fell like a terrible person for not crying. I know that it was his time though. He's been sick for a few years (not seriously just kinda off and on sickness) but for the past week he's been in a nursing home with hospice nurses comin and going. My Grandma told me that when he died he had a smile on his face, so I take that as he knew it was ready to go. i think that this is what keeps me from crying. knowing that he was ready to go and he went peacefully.

More later maybe...