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Let's see, it's about 12:30 A.M. and I am bored out of my mind. Going to sleep could possibly help with this, but I'm going to shove it in a bunch of insomiacs' faces. See, I make fun of them because unlike them, I Can go to sleep, but I won't!!11! HAR HAR HAR! Anyways....
I dunno, I never really thought..... wait, I take that back. I constantly wondered if I had some form of depression, but I can't think of why I would have it. I mean, I have an 8.5/10 life right now. I can't think of anything serious that's happened in the past 8 years, and even then that event shouldn't have been THAT important. I don't need a job right now, I have a nice Mom and sister, and there is really nothing to be bothering me. Maybe that's the problem. I mean, you can't have everything for free, right? Oh well.
As for more happy news, This heart turned into this crying . Ok, not necessarily like that, but.... no, not really like that. It more turned from this redface to crying to rofl . Cereally, it did!1!!
You see, at the beginning of the school year, I met a girl who, for a reason chosen through a game of Rock-Paper-Scissors, started talking to me. Anyways, we became good friends. I started to like her which spawned my first annoying problem; trying to tell her I liked her. Now, if you know me in real life, I'll rip out your intestines if you tell anyone off of Gaia mrgreen . Back to the point, in real life I am incredibly shy. This is quite embarrassing for me, as I am a loud mouthed.... Arse... Anyways, as soon as I decided that I would tell her this, she told me she's had a boyfriend for the past two years and that he had graduated last year (I'm working on a thought, but that's for another day). Now, I had to get through my next problem; living with this. I really didn't like this odd and annoying turn of events. I had spent half my time at school and more with this person and now when I feel all special inside, This! So, yeah, it sucked. Now, I have a kind of guilty conscience, I think. I really, really don't like thinking about things that are what I consider morally wrong, for example, wanting something that isn't yours. As a result, everytime I tried to think up of some way we could get together, I brutally (Mentally, of course) punished myself. Remember, mentally. There is no physical pain that can beat the mind's torture. So.... Yeah, this puts me in a stupid and un-needed spot. If, for some God-forsaken reason, you have read Twilight (and you should be burning at the steak [Yes, steak] right now), think of it this way; She's Bella, He's Edward, and I'm Jacob. I don't think the baby option is realistic here mrgreen .

Ok, now that I'm done with that, I think.....*YYYYYYAAAWWWNN* I'll go to...... bed..................... *SNORE*

P.S. I just remembered, I had a disturbing thought when I tried to sleep last night (This is while I was still conscious). I, for some awkward reason, imagined that I was looking at myself from the third person. Then all of a sudden, one of my eyeballs popped out and it was hanging by the 'cord' (for lack of a better term and being lazy). Suddenly, some guy jumps in out of nowhere and starts chewing on the 'cord'. I doubt this is a thought that goes through normal people's minds, but I'm not other people, so I can't say......... So yeah.