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Just something I have been thinking about today that I need to get out.

My life as been like a quick sand. The more I tried to get out the deeper I sank in. I am not typing this so anyone will feel bad for me. Nor do I think that anyone will read this. I have been thinking a lot about my lost love ones. Not only the dearly departed. But the ones whom have left my life with out a single glance back.

Jeb-I did not know you long... But in away you touched my life. When I told everyone you was dead. It was like no one cared. Not even Amber whom kissed you as midnight that cold new years eve. I will never tell anyone what you told me. It would crush your friends to know you took your own life.

Tiffany-I miss you so much. I wish I could have taken all the pain you had in the last moments of your life. The dream you sent me I will never forget. When I told everyone you was gone before even the cops knew... It was a turning point in my life. Forever the outcast that some feared, some wanted.

Heather- I were the love of my life. We were going to have a family together. I took care of you and gave you everything I had. It still wasn't good enough. You took every word I said and throw it in my face. You where the last thing that took me over the edge. In a way I thank you.

Jason- Heather lied to me about you. I know that now. But it was all to late. The world has lost a great man, a great musician, and a wonderful soul. You would have made this world a better place. I didn't know you well but a part of me broke inside when I heard what happened to you. I remember you used to look at me until the bus was out of sight. The little girl with the black hair you wrote a song about is still hear and I will never change.

Jack and Keane my pet rats- Yes I know he was only a rat. But he was loving and loyal. Drove my mother crazy having a rat in the house. But I loved it. The way Jack you sit on my shoulder and sniff my hair. Keane would sleep in a ball and do back flips. I miss you my little ratties.

John- Heather lied about you also. When you went into the Army I was so depressed. It went against everything you told me you stood for. I remember when I first seen you in your trench coat and combat boots. I thought I feel in love! But I was wrong. I have seen you the way you are now and think to myself. "WOW, What a loser!"

Tim- Thank you for teaching me not to get mixed in the occult. I do not know if you are dead or alive. Sad to say that I could care less. Last I had seen you was when Stephi awoke and seen you sitting on the bed next to me. You where my master then you plagued me when I did not take your life force. I am sorry I did not want you the way you wanted me. Thanks for backing off and leaving my dreams.

I will write of more people. but I have some things to do. burning_eyes