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It's been a long a** time since I've written in this thing. Usually it's bitching or potential novel entries. I kind of have some good news for once and I've been half telling the world. I may as well put it here too.

A lot's happened since my last non-creative entry.

I'm still in my dead-end subway job and hating every minute of it, but hey, it pays the bills. I'm moving into a new place soon-ish if I can get the money for it. Yay for not living with my parents anymore.

Now to the real interesting bit.

You've lived through many a rant about my women. Lately... Aside from the last two weeks, nothing changed. I had several women I was flirting with, one took me home and tried to get me drunked up to sleep with me but my morals prevailed of never sleeping with a drunk chick. (I wasn't that drunk so I drove my a** home after doing... some things) It was a great confidence booster though. Over the next few weeks I started developing relationships with a few women, one of which I ended up making out with in the back seat of my car while we were hammered. Not my proudest moment, by any means but it was fun.

The latest though... My dearest.

I've been speaking to this girl for a few months. We never thought anything of it beyond friendship. We'd cut each other down at the knees playfully insulting each other, and having quick witted conversations. Truthfully she's an ex-girlfriend from highschool. I broke her heart, but we have both grown since then and we forged a new friendship.

We started talking to each other more over facebook, leaving snarky comments on each other's statuses... After a while I sent her my e-mail so she could add me to MSN

One of these MSN convos ended with me saying "If you want to do something tomorrow text me" And I gave her my number. She replies with "Yea if I'm bored enough I might message ya."

She messaged me that morning. Woke me up, damnit but I didn't mind so much. I smiled when I saw the text, instantly knowing it was her, without having her number in my phone.

Last Monday I ended up over at her place to hang out. Our first hang out day. I brought coffee, we talked about old times and highschool and stuff, and even had a visit from another old highschool friend. was nice to see her again, but I really wanted her to leave so the girl and Icould be alone xp

one of the original reasons for me going over there was because she wanted a massage and no one would give it to her. I offered, loving to give them as much as receive them. So I started giving her the massage just before the other girl was about to leave. When she left, my girl laid back on my legs and I had my arms around her.

At some point during the night we ended up cuddling on the couch (keep in mind this was only supposed to be a hangout day.... Nothing else) Her knees on my legs, or our feet together, my arm around her... It was just little things.

At the end of the night I stood (it's about 11pm at this point, and I've been there since about 3:30pm.) and outstretched my arms for my hug. She hugged me alright... but not breaking the embrace she draped her arms around my neck and touched her forehead to mine. then touched her nose to mine.

Now tell me... Was I supposed to NOT kiss her at this point? haha
Either way I did. And about four more times up the stairs. It was a bit of cute awkward too when our glasses knocked together... heh. took them off pretty quick.

It's been about a week since then. we've kind of labled ourselves as "Dating" I guess. Things are going great, more or less.

Problem is... my timing sucks a**. She just started dating another guy and I kind of intruded on that. She's still sort of seeing him but informed me a couple days ago that I was "winning"

I was the nice guy and said "this isn't a game, there is no winner or loser. you're not a trophy. I'm just enjoying the time I get to spend with you."

But meh. I don't even care that he's there. Okay that's half a lie. I wish I was the only one in her life, but I also understand that I kind of placed myself in the middle of things....

Things are happening with her and I that I won't post, of course, for privacy and PG-13 reasons xp But all in all it's going great. I really care about this girl and don't want to eff anything up.

That's it for now kiddies. Maybe you'll get an update later xp If anyone cares.