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What is love? Is it merely chemicals in our body desiring someone else. Or is it a desire that turns into a dependability. Or could it be a drug? In which case when we lose love, we scramble our lives to find it once more. I say it's all of the above. But what do you call love interrupted?
What do you call another feeling, another emotion that causes you to get frustrated, upset, desperate, even depressed. Just because someone else becomes a point of interest in your life. Would you call that cheating? Just feeling for someone else? Dreaming of them? Or would you call it lust? But can lust be a drug too?
I met someone, at work, OF COURSE, and at first I just thought they were fun. But then they became flirty, REALLY flirty when we went drinking together. It just so happens that the relationship I'm currently in is somewhat...well not many people approve. I'm older than my boyfriend, and I can drink , and he's not of age yet. So he'll encourage me to go drinking with our co-workers.
I drink, I get drunk, I flirt, and the most horrible thing is, I don't feel bad when I wake up the next morning. I merely pass it off as something I did while drunk. But...it's become more than that. I flirt while sober, and when I'm around that person, I can smile without trying! When he gets ready to go drinking, I sit on the edge of my bar stool and wait for him to say 'Eh, Come on you! Drinking time!" Oh and he's Irish, and his accent...WOOOO!
I need help, he's even been in my dreams, and for a week straight it felt like we were dating in my dreams. We went through the motions, went through the steps. But after the kiss, that was it, he disappeared from my dreams...he even disappeared from my life. He doesn't invite me to drink anymore.....I think I did something wrong......but I can't figure it out. Out of everything, I just want him to be my friend....just a friend.
 Anika_Dreamweaver · Tue Mar 03, 2009 @ 03:27am · 0 Comments |
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