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Man I can't remember the last time I wrote in this. Anyway, I went to a wedding this past weekend and let me tell you...TRUE LOVE DOES EXIST!!!! Some people say it doesn't exist but I've witnessed it first hand. Julie and silas.....met in their teens and broke up...found each other again and broke up......found each other yet again.....married. Even though they went through hardships, they never stopped loving each other. Not to sound emo or anything but someday I'd like to find my one true love. Who knows, mabye I found her but was too damn stupid, pathetic, idiotic...blah, blah, blah, the list goes on. But the point is mabye I did find her but was so wrapped up into myself I didn't realize how much I needed and wanted her. I still do. Now what am I doing? Nothing. Just what I've always been and will always see myself. A friend told me "how can you love someone when you don't love yourself?" As if it's that simple. Truth is....I'm scared. I love her but I'm not sure if she even feels the same way anymore. What if she found someone else? It crushes me everytime I think about it because I don't want her to be with anyone else but me. But I can't even say that. Instead of saying how I feel.....
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