mood: stare emo
I don’t want this anymore. I want everything to just end. This is too much. it’s like everything that was ever supposed to go wrong in my life happened in one month. My grandpa died. On my birthday. And I watched. I know I know. I was stupid.. I thought that I needed to be there for him because I never paid him mind before but I nearly regret it. It haunts me. I see his face. cold, ashen pale on the table. The dead silence caressing the overly clean room. Ive broken down four times now.
My family has become estranged. Not really talkative anymore and when they do talk, its fighting over what they get out of his will. ******** voulturous family.
I don’t really have friends anymore. They just, left. Don’t want to be around me anymore. Perfect timing right?
My boyfriend is also gone. I don’t know where he went but it’s been four weeks now. Hardly any messages, I ask him why he’s gone and he just...tells me that he doesn't even know himself. people are telling me that he’s cheating on me or that he’s about to dump me. of course his disappearance happens days after my “friend” bethanny tells me that im not supposed to be with him. I just wont believe it. Why would he cheat on me? ive done nothing wrong.
Have i..?
My grades have done more than slipped. Im doing all my work and studying hard. But I guess its not enough.
My backpack was also stolen. My ******** projects in it. Guess im gonna fail my classes even more.
Still no mason. Lovely isn’t it? I have detention for the next week. Guess I shouldn’t have “let” my backpack get stolen.
I hate my life and wish it would just end NOW. I cant take this anymore. Ive even started to hallucinate and haven’t slept in months before any of this started. Why me? of all people why does all this have to be put on MY shoulders?
I cant take this anymore…
I don’t want this anymore. I want everything to just end. This is too much. it’s like everything that was ever supposed to go wrong in my life happened in one month. My grandpa died. On my birthday. And I watched. I know I know. I was stupid.. I thought that I needed to be there for him because I never paid him mind before but I nearly regret it. It haunts me. I see his face. cold, ashen pale on the table. The dead silence caressing the overly clean room. Ive broken down four times now.
My family has become estranged. Not really talkative anymore and when they do talk, its fighting over what they get out of his will. ******** voulturous family.
I don’t really have friends anymore. They just, left. Don’t want to be around me anymore. Perfect timing right?
My boyfriend is also gone. I don’t know where he went but it’s been four weeks now. Hardly any messages, I ask him why he’s gone and he just...tells me that he doesn't even know himself. people are telling me that he’s cheating on me or that he’s about to dump me. of course his disappearance happens days after my “friend” bethanny tells me that im not supposed to be with him. I just wont believe it. Why would he cheat on me? ive done nothing wrong.
Have i..?
My grades have done more than slipped. Im doing all my work and studying hard. But I guess its not enough.
My backpack was also stolen. My ******** projects in it. Guess im gonna fail my classes even more.
Still no mason. Lovely isn’t it? I have detention for the next week. Guess I shouldn’t have “let” my backpack get stolen.
I hate my life and wish it would just end NOW. I cant take this anymore. Ive even started to hallucinate and haven’t slept in months before any of this started. Why me? of all people why does all this have to be put on MY shoulders?
I cant take this anymore…
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*waves hands around in the air like a maniac*
I'M STILL HERE!!! D:
i want to help you feel better.