At 4:00 pm today I took a nap. I had dreams though I'm not sure what about.I was kind of depressed throughout the day so that's why I took a nap.When I wake up around five my parents are like can you go get some wood before supper.So I go and do that;it snowing/raining outside and the wood(which is more like sticks) was all soggy so that wasn't great.Anyway while I was getting the wood I was thinking about my day and the selecting thing out of my day that stood out.I'm pretty much sulking really.So when I go I take my boots off since there when but then my sock are a pain in the butt an fall of. So it was kind embarrassing for some reason also cause I was wobbling when I enter carrying a box of wood (sticks)Everyone(family) was in the kitchen watching, except for Moni she was making supper. So I feel really akward about my weird entrance,and wanted to escape. This kind of should really happen when your in your own home. I mean at school I'm guarded all the time,even at home.Though when I'm home I feel save and I can be less guarded.(Someone out there knows what I'm talking about) Anyway so I put my shoes away and take the wood down stairs.Feeling really stupid and fatherly depressed. Then as I'm coming up the stairs,my dad jokingly blocks the way.Though I try to get past though he blocks the way some more. He was joking and I knew that.Though for some unknown reason I start cry.Not the whaling kind of cry just the tears to eyes and tight throat,unable to speak cry. I didn't know why I was crying.I had completely for got about my entrance and when I had done since the time I woke from my nap.Well I knew what I had done but it was foggy. I was cry and I didn't know why,it was weird.I still didn't know why. I mean I doubt its because of me being depressed since I don't break out crying,I just get sad and feel as though the energy has been drained from me.That's it for now.
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