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...Haha...that's a lot of "ifs" there...heh heh...
First of all...I would let you...because you listen to me...and seem to understand me more than most...
Second of all... W...why would you say something like that to me...? Why would you... Hahahahaha... No...nevermind... Nevermind...nevermind...nevermind... I...ha...I don't...I can't... No...it would be best...if you never said such things...do not offer me your heart...not even in eternal friendship...there's...there is no such thing on this earth...as love...It is NOT real... There...is only the pain of loss...there is no love...I can't...WON'T...ever again...believe in such things...as love...anymore... I have lost...too much to heartache...I don't ever want to feel...anything again. I would rather have my heart cut out of my chest...than feel the pain I feel... The poison in my blood...i-is so far into my system...it will never leave me... I-it burns th-through my viens...and crush the shattered pieces of my heart...
I am but a porcelain doll...I have broken from the fall...broken, broken, broken down...shattered pieces hit the ground...can't be put together again...not by lover, not by friend...would rather die by being crushed...then sit there broken collecting dust...I am but a porcelain doll...I will never love at all...
I'm sorry...I'm sick...I'm twisted...broken...weak...fragile...alone...and in so much pain... I'M TIRED OF WANTING IT!!!! Instead I think I'd much rather...fade away into nothingness...I have never felt pain so great...it's so much worse than ever before. And it's all his fault!!! I hate him!!! I hate love!!! I HATE IT! I HATE IT!! I HATE IT!!! I hate me...oh how I hate myself... Don't promise me your heart...don't promise me your love...I'll only break you like I always do...I break everything I touch...I'll be left collecting dust...left to rot and rust...but at least I won't be hurting anyone...at least I won't be hurting you...
I'll just pretend you never said anything...and then you won't be bound by word...and you'll be free... Heh heh...Then you won't feel bad for not keeping your word...and I won't feel bad for breaking you...I won't have to...There...all fixed...no harm done...no worries...no pain...I think it's starting to ebb away...I'm alright now...no harm done...no harm, no harm...it's all alright...I'll sleep tonight and forget in the morning...and you'll be free...And I'll be...dead inside like I'm meant to be...It's better that way for everyone...I went a little crazy there for a second didn't I? Hahahahahahaah! Sorry about that...it's all okay now...all okay. No worries, no worries, no worries today...
I hope you sleep well and your nightmares are pleasant...your freedom I give you, it is your present... n.n Good night my dear friend...
 xXWhisper of the InsaneXx · Thu Apr 09, 2009 @ 03:09am · 0 Comments |
