My time is worthless my father said... Im nothing but a stupid ignorant pile of s**t that deserves to die... As im typing this I want to ******** breakdown and just ******** die... He says that i think that i have control, he says i think im ******** god, hes just pushing to much s**t on me. He was supposed to ******** help me with my driving he was supposed to help me with my job. What a ******** father he is. I dont really want to be alive anymore thanks to this. He just repeatedly drills me and im sick and tired of it. He constantly yells at me to go hang out with my friends... reality is i dont really have any... Ya im a loner, ya im an outcast, and ya im a complete ******** loser, have a problem with it you can just leave me the hell alone... Im sick and tired of all this i wish i could leave but i cant... I cant... My body and mind is tired.... not weak no not yet but tired.... If i had a way to change this i would....
My life isnt worth nothing to him though... half the time i dont think anyone else cares... and then i talk to those who live around the world and actually try to attempt to know me with the exception that they cant meet me face to face and that really is worth alot to me... I just wish though... i wish that my fathers and my relationship will go back to what it used to be.... to the old days when he was happy to call me his son... ive never once been unhappy that he was my father... but he thinks that and it hurts... it really hurts....
 Kazuki Daisuke · Mon May 18, 2009 @ 05:34am · 4 Comments |
