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How could I escape from this world?!
Sometimes, I just want to sleep, sleep, sleep.
Sleep. Just like a coma.
They're just dreams. Dreams that aren't real. Dreams that don't ******** ruin your life.
Goddammit.
Why do have to make it so hard?!
Why does everyone?
Why?
Why can't I just leave?
LEAVE.
Why do I have to be hurt all the time.
You guys always ******** ruin it. I hate it. I hate you.
I'll forgive you someday, but not now.
You make it so ******** hard.
I HATE YOU.
I want to scream at the world. Why now? Why now, while I'm so weak?
Why doesn't anybody care?
I want to ******** kill someone sometimes. I've turned into a ******** up person.
Dammit.
I don't want to die. I don't want to die, but I just want to leave.
Leave somewhere.
Just like that one time.
"I just want to get out of here. Please".
s**t, I was in so much hurt that time.
Yes, I know. You guys were ******** staring at me. Yes, I ******** care.
What the hell, how about you rip the heart out of me? ******** it. I hate this.
Ruin my life. Go ahead. Here's the knife
Wait, you already did.
For now, I hope.
I need to calm down.
But I still feel shitty. ******** up.
No, I'm not emo. Okay?
Its just that.
Life sucks right now.
And I just want to escape.








Sorry you had to read that.